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As some of you know i had surgery 2 days ago, well i am still recovering from that which shoudn't take much long, but on top of that i have a small run of the flu :( I hope to be back soon

What can i say i have posted in a long time during Wow and bad health, i feel like crap everyday and i will explain why.

But first I'm starting of with some WoW things. Well TBC is out, I've hit 70 on my Warrior and got her a flying mount, everything sounds all great and everything, well really it's not i'm having no fun at all with the guild i am in. I'm just getting really upset with people, I'm getting cut of alot of things coz of my class, and i know a few people who feel the same way within the guild so i am not alone. I guess i put trust in the wrong people, people i thought were friends when i guess they just don't give a damn bout other but themselves. I guess what burns me the most is the fact that having 18k hp is awesome and that druid has to be the Mt of everything, *cough* Warriors don't need the amount of hp coz you know why. We can block attacks! omg who would have thought that, we have a shield what does it do? BLOCK! but no, not good enough, have to have 18k - 20k hp. Psh HP isn't everything bout tanking, I've tanked for over a year, i know what the fuck i am doing, but i guess people are just narrow sighted and won't try anything else, so whatever if i am not needed i will find some where else to go if i must. I got yelled at from a friend coz i bitched bout druid tank, am i not allowed to say what i want? if it wasn't for me and the other warriors within the guild you wouldn't have gear you got, but you know, who fucking cares right? no-one of course. Rogues are feeling the same way as Warriors atm, 2 melee classes that don't seem to be needed anymore, which you know is fucking bullshit. You know i don't know what is good enough in this guild anymore i respeced to help more only to sit on the sidelines, guess thats not good enough. I guess tanking for OVER A YEAR ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE IN THIS GUILD! All the people are narrow fucking sighted, I never heard Nice work to any of the tanks when we got new stuff down back in the raiding day, and just like that we are pushed away, never heard anyone say that to me. Guess i was a shit warrior then.
Thanks.

YOu know what i don't fucking feel like talk bout how sick i am atm (real life) I just don't care anymore, like alot of other people.

2006 is over. 2007 has begun. Let us try not to turn away chances we missed last year, and find what we really want.
Yeah believe it, another year passed.

2006 brought a lot of joy and pain, Joy that I will remember, Pain that I will remember. Why remember pain? Coz then I won’t do the same stuff again. Ever upside has a downside.

Personal, wish I didn’t do some of the things I did that year and then there were some things I should have done.

Family, well what can I say they are there when you need them and a pain in the arse when your under stress, they do there best and that all I could hope. Guess really I didn’t give 100% over the year, 100% I don’t think I have ever done anything with 100% clear minded.

Friends, I love my friends, I really do. Some days I wonder how they put up with me, and wonder why they do. This just aimed at friends I know in real life, it is also aimed at a bunch of close friends I know on World of Warcraft. The ones I log on everyday to see and hang out with, and then there are the ones I don’t see to often but smile every time I see them. I can say I have brought some pain to some very close people, and I’m sorry for that, and I know I have made them laugh also which makes me feel happy.

World of Warcraft, what can I say, it’s a fun game. At the start of the year I started raiding, got hooked about the raiding style. From that I meant most of my friends and became a skilful warrior. In earlier post on my LJ I had doubt about my self playing my class, but I say I have come along way from where I stood at 1st hitting 60. I have seen Zul'Gurub, Ruins of Ahn'Qiraj, Onyxia's Lair, Molten Core, Blackwing Lair, Temple of Ahn'Qiraj, Naxxramas, I got to see all the raiding instances, even though only the start of Naxx I was happy. And with raiding I got the Thunderfury, legendary sword which took close to 6 months to make.

2007 is like a new door, which has been open, with new things await for me this year. So, Happy New Year Everyone, Good Luck in 2007

- Nathan King

Though a couple days late, on the 23rd of Dec 2005 is when i got Adacis to 60, and now a year as passed by.



The one on the left is Addy in 2005, while the one on the right is Addy atm in 2006. Alot of things have changed as you can see XD Got to say i have come a long from those days, and soon everything will be changing again, expansion is only a few weeks away. I will do a more detailed post bout some stuff later, just really doin nothing atm :)

Christmas has come and it has gone like that, over with for this year.

So as the day begun I had my 3rd night of lack sleeping. I am unsure of why I am lacking sleep, maybe things that have happened in the past few days, or just the huge weather change here in Australia. I know it seems odd, weather effecting sleep? It happens.

Past Christmas we would all get up and sit near the tree and open presents, well this year I got my present a lot earlier so I just jumped on the computer to see who was on. Though I was hoping to see everyone from wow online to say merry Christmas to them, but everyone was busy. Just when I thought there was on one to talk to Kate popped out of no where. So for the morning I sat around talking to her bout the day to come and other things, got my morning off to a good start, and though was little down there weren’t more people on.

So 10am we headed off to my Grandad house to catch up with dad’s side of the family, at the time I was a little hung over from Christmas Eve, apparently I did a instance run in World of Warcraft before I went out, I can’t remember it to well :S Anyway, we pretty much sat around handed out presents, talked and left.

When we got home, really didn’t get much time to ourselves had to get moving to head off to Horsham to visit mum’s side of the family. Usually when we visit mum’s side, kind of feel left out of the family circle for some reason. Though today was pretty fun, everyone seemed to be in a good mood. So I sat around talking to my uncles and aunts, cousins I haven’t seen in ages, I do laugh though I’m 6”3 and my cousin Luke is 6”7 every time we are together at a family function we are ask to stand side-by-side, dear god he is tall >.< Lunch was awesome, I couldn’t ever go back for seconds was that full, though always room for dessert ^_^ So as we finished up, I sat around playing with my phone and get asked if it had Bluetooth on it from my uncle Adrian how to get that all set up. So I mucked around a bit with his phone and managed to get it all sync up with his wife’s phone.

After all that was done, we started handing out presents, well this year; my little cousin who we call BJ was around. He is only 3 years old, but was a lot of fun, watching open presents reminds me of when I was a little kid. So as my grandma was calling out names, BJ would walk around with the present and give it to the person, so when my name was called he gave me this card which had $10 in it. So as he was opening the card, my Uncle John was going to him “take the money and put it in your pocket” omg was so freaking funny, I sat there and watched him take the money out of the card and look for his pocket made everyone laugh.

So around 4pm we headed home for some rest, I jumped back on the computer and did a 2 man BRD run with Kate, this time around Ryan was also one so I got speak to them for a while before heading around to my dad’s side for dinner.

We got around there, my Uncle Stan’s house for dinner, it was so freaking cold, and windy it didn’t really seem like an Australian Christmas. Just glad he had a freaking heater going when we got there so I sat next to that while eating my dinner. Also had to explain what Bluetooth was to them, that was fun >.< After dinner, I head outside to talk to my cousins a little, pretty much we were just throwing a ball around, and wait around a few mins so my cousin Courtney could “fixing” herself up. Like omg, who the hell wears a dress on a cold and windy day, crazy damn teens. I head home after I got bored, which wasn’t long, telling your cousin to stop playing around with her boobs gets annoying, seen that she was doing it every freaking sec, get it “fixing” yeah…

So I get home, type this post up and well might play some World of Warcraft then head off to bed

So tomorrow is Christmas, family to see with most likely only 5 hours sleep.

Goin to be a interesting day tomorrow, traveling to horsham in the morning for lunch then back here for tea (dinner). I have been made to drive the family around tomorrow, but i'm goin out tonight to the pub with friends. Really not much else to say bout tomorrow, just goin to be a very long day...

Yesterday on the other hand was a very long day, just seem to tick by so slowly, that could of been coz everyone seem to be busy do things away from computer. Also was my dads b'day yesterday, was good seen old family members around, though i did get alittle pissed when my aunt went "Oh Carly is here!" I was like so fucking what, i don't want to talk to her, coz she is a fucking suck up little bitch and her boyfriend is a fucking cockhead, want to punch him in the face. Part of the family, psst your got a long way to go buddy and i'll be there every step.


Christmas Eve atm. Christmas Day tomorrow, Then soon 2007! Merry Christmas Everyone :)

Isn’t Christmas fun? Really is it?

Went shopping today with the family, everything was fine, until my dad and sister started fighting. It’s odd, they are pretty much the same, and here they are in a busy shop yelling each other, it’s enough to just de-zone them sometimes it gets that bad. Shopping with the family was err a bad choice today; though I’m glad I made it out alive with no injury this time around.

On the way down to Horsham today, I noticed that the smoke from the fires on the coast have made there way up here. Surprised I am, seen that I leave so fucking far away from the coast, last year was a lot worse, outside was pretty much Orange, due to the sun mixing with the heavy smoke, cool site to see, but made it hell to go outside.

As we drove into Horsham, mum goes “so breakfast at McDonalds?” I sat there thinking, last time I had that for a meal, I was sick for a week. We sat down in the park (same place I had dinner the other night) and my mum passes me this hot chocolate, I try it and to my surprise I didn’t die from it, it actually tasted good. We finished off breakfast and went on our merry little way, oh what a grand day we had in front of us…..

Shopping was a pain, Kids everywhere, parents not even watching them, couldn’t find anything you like, and to top it off, it was freaking hot >.< As everything was going fine shopping, the fighting started between my dad and sister, serious just hit a freaking nerve. Was to hot, to put up with this fucking bullshit, mum just sighs it off, while I try to break it up. When we finished shopping we made our way to my grandparents place for lunch.

Before I could sit down and say hello, I had to do some other things before lunch. Picking up my Xbox was an easy task, also funny coz I woke the lazy bastard up :P and washing the car which took around 10 mins. With all that out of the way, finally got to sit back and have some lunch ^^ After lunch was a pain, my mum goes out to the car to get something out of the boot, when she shuts the door, she locks the keys inside….
I just looked at her, and said “Oh! This is the second time you have done this!!!” she didn’t find that to funny. So, we ring up this guy who takes almost hour to get there, in the burning heat, this guy is trying to break his way in to the car to get the keys. Took him almost 20mins, so I make the smartarse remark “geez dad, trust you to get a car that’s hard to break into” dad just laughed at me, as mum was more relieved that she got the keys back.

While shopping got me V for Vendetta, omg started watching it at my Grandparents house, with Dolby digital on, cranked up loud for that extra feel :P The movie it self, was awesome, I liked it a lot. Kate was the one talking bout it over vent so I thought I would check the hype out, and she was right, freaking awesome movie.

I guess the day it self wasn’t bad apart from a few fights, but on the way home, things just blew up in the car. Got into a fight with my dad, wasn’t much fun him been a fucking arse bout things. At the moment I just want to live home and going visit this girl I like a lot, though gathering money would be hard in a small amount of time, I believe that been with her would make things better, just time away from them and time with someone i love. Just sick of all the crap that this family throws out sometimes.

Ah, a eventful night.

So i went to see a old friend from a Tafe Course i did last year, of course this would be another night i totally kick his arse at Halo 2 :P

Game 1 - 100 Kills, SWAT style. I love this form of game style in Halo 2, no shields, Battle Rifle and a Handgun. So, he seemed very cocky for the 1st game of the night. hehe, was a very close fight at the start, but i managed to get ahead, i won the game 100 / 67 / 52. Oh, ther was someone else playing so was 3man free for all.

Game 2 - 50 kills. Teams. Normal Play. Ok, so my friend has a sister, and i get stuck with her on my team, she isn't that good, but thats not a problem, her bro would always go for a easy kill and who would be there with a sniper rifle waiting :) So i pretty much single handly won the match. I finsihed with 47 kills, though i did say if she never got those 3 kills i didn't have we would have lost :)

After those 2 games, we headed out to get some food. mmm food. To top this drive off, Daniels 21st was in like 2 hours. Oh yeah, Keaya, to lazy to type his real name, is the guys name. Anyway, we went and got some food only to drive past some fine talent (ladies) walking the streets, Of course Daniel is drunk off his head, start screaming at them, was pretty funny. Oh god, then the singing ><

So we get back to Keayas house, i get my arse out to open the gate, after closing it, i couldn't be fucked getting back in the car, so i jumped on the back and told him to drive. I fall off and started running after him. Almost fall onto the loose stones on the ground. Ah, never goin to do that again. lol

So we went back to Halo 2 for one more game.

Game 3 - 250 kills. Rockets. So i didn't win this one coz i was to busy eating and drinking half way through it, though the time Keaya, managed to get last 30 kills he needed i came back from 160 to 243. in that time he still was working for those last 30 kills :P hehe Rockets anyone can use them.

So that was that night done, i got up and drove home after that last game. Music all the way up to keep me awake some. Oh i didn't mention, as i was eating dinner at the park, Alisa (Old friend) pop out of no where and scared the crap out of me. Was good seen her, it has been a while, mostly just talked bout random things, think i got her thinking bout having a nice hot bath with candles and music playing, Totally random statement from me she said. Though she did mentioned i changed alittle bit, though not for the worse :) Have to go visit her one day, and annoy her some :P

So I haven’t posted in sometime, and with Tae on my back every day to freaking update this thing I thought I might actually update it tonight, well waiting for pvp.

I’ll start with some real life events first, Saturday night just past was my friends 21st. I have known her for around 10 years and haven’t seen her all year round due to her been at uni. The night was a lot of fun, met some new people and joked around with some old friends, though the weather was so hot, my god was like I was going to die out there >.< With that night over, Tuesday night my family and hers went out for dinner, seen that both families have known each other for so long, Emma is pretty much the older sister I never had. So yeah, we had dinner down at the towns diner, was a lot of fun just sitting back talking about things, life and all that good stuff. So after dinner was finished, we made Emma jump into a sleigh and put on a Santa hat for a photo, was pretty funny to watch and I even asked for a copy of the photo so I have something to remember her by. After all that good fun at the diner, I took her out for a drive to go look at some Christmas lights around town. Though there were a fair few up, was more fun just talking bout stuff then actually looking at the lights. Have to one day go down and visit her, and just go out drinking one night like when she still lived here, although she is dragging me down to the Pub on Christmas Eve

Also something Mr. Squidge reminded me on. Hot Pants, oh yes, at that party there was a girl in hot pants, and I tell you she must have raised the heat or something.

Ok, World of Warcraft time, oh yeah. Fun times in there. Anyway, I still hate this freaking patch, still little hurt about some of the warrior nerfs, but those wounds are getting healed. Oh yeah, speaking of heals, lately its becoming somewhat of a task to get a heal in raids, like seriously. In Naxx the other day we were doing these freaking hell spider packs, and the odd thing was I never got any heals on the mobs we kill, but I would some how get heals on the ones we wipe on. Like seriously wtf?! I hear this one priest start making excuses bout some crap, like seriously you know when we are pulling mobs when you see the hunters pet run down the hall, also chain pulling we have done that before. Whatever, if I just don’t get healed I might just give up and leave, go spend my time pvping. As for pvp, I am working towards getting some nice DPS plate pants and bracers, they will increase my dps gear a great deal, so I should have them very soon. On top of those I’m still little unsure if I want to go for one of the Grand Marshal weapons, they are nice, but that’s a lot of work to put in.

“I’m going to shank you!”

So I know this girl called Jen, and well she is a little crazy at times, but do I love her, Of course.

Varona aka Jen, is a awesome friend, and a up coming Fury Warrior Superstar. Does she have the power to stab us? Yes, Does she want to “get rid of her roommate” Hell Yes.

I know for sure, that this isn’t as OMG awesome as the one she did for me, but I did what I could.

So Tae, You can shut up now.

Also YAY JEN!

I miss stories, i thought of this coz i was looking at my Kingdom Hearts 2 case before, and i remember how much of a confusing but awesome story it has. I just miss games that have awesome stories about them, the ones the bring out the game, holds it altogether, i miss those. God, now i'm thinking back bout some of my fav ones, Golden Sun games on the Gameboy Advance, omg i loved those games so much fun. Zelda : OoT was just jaw dropping, just a awesome game overall. There are heaps more i'm sure, those 2 just come to mind atm.

Today i found out they are releasing another Burnout game, Fuck yeah! Love Burnout, I remember playing Burnout Revenge on the Xbox, playing Online, my god, i got so high in the rankings. Hanging out with the other top drivers was so much fun. Think i ranked around 8th for Racing and 11th for Crashes, good times. Hmm could play that tongiht as well.

Last night went for a nice walk with friends, just talking bout random stuff, whats happening, what movies are out all that good stuff. Though the funnest thing was after the walk, i sat back and watched my friend play Pikmen on the Gamecube, and just listening to him goin nuts at it, my god funny times, i miss those as well, Super Smash Bros. Melee was the best.

Just looking back so many fun memories from consoles. Good Times!

So we raided BWL tonight to give our new mods and specs a real test out. So i don't know what blizzs idea of a warrior is anymore, are we a dps class? or still the top tanking class?

Well tonight was a painful, Where can i start. Oh yes, usally i'm the Tech tank, its a pain in the arse job, but someone has to do it, so we set up like we do, i run and only to find out that Demo Shout doesnt do a thing anymore. NO THREAT at all from it. At that point i just burst into a ball of angry, I was so fucking pissed off. So we got a pally to tank the techs to see if they can do it, Well this next part just pushed my agry up even more. It worked which was good, she did a good job, i wasn't angry at her, i was angry at the thankless people just forgetting bout me, like fuck ive been doing that for i don't know how long. Bah whatever, one less job to worry bout.

Ah now the the next screw over, I don't see why the fuck we need Warriors as Off Tanks anymore, i really don't why? We CANT build rage to keep up with the main tank. My fucking god, i don't to see Huhu that is goin to be fucking stupid. Perfect Picture from tonights raid. Main Tank got BoP'd on Nef, yeah i know what a fuck up, and of course the off tanks could get Nef coz out threat was so low, coz we can't build rage. If we could build more rage, we could have had nerf snap back and not wipe out almost half the raid. But, whatever. You know it's only a game right, and i do feel strongly bout my class, so i am venting what is pissing me off bout the fucking changes to it.

Maybe this is away to give Pallys and Druids something else to do, though i don't want to sound like a prick, just my 2cents, if we made all Pallys lets say tank/dps wouldn't the healing take a hard it? I say if we had to choose like 1 or 2 pallys to do a job, like tank i wouldn't mind, but not all of them.

I'm just in a cranky mood, just need to get this out of my system, atleast i'm goin for a walk with friends, get my mind of things.

On another note, i got my Boots of Wrath, 3 set bouns yay! Now if only Wrath was dps armor i might wear it on my dps set :P Seen that the bouns from wrath is 30ap to Battle Shout. That means my Battle Shout will be goin up for 320 ap.

O.O Halo 3 new trailer -> Halo 3 Official Movie

I watched it, and i just want to play that game so bad now. T.T

Anyway, WoW got a new patch, 2.0 which was fun downloading....... New talents, blah blah all that good stuff. Oh! 2 months to my B'day, yay me!

Today we went and said a hello to C'thun. 1st as a guild we have cleared the trash up to him,. (trash makes you want to punch babies) Though it didnt seem that bad when we got it down. Also people got some new weapons today, nice way to increase the dps in raids. C'thun is one of those fights which you really can't explain it over vent, have to be thrown in there and feel the fight.


C'thun has been the biggest bosses i ever want to fight, and i can't wait to step into that room and give it a go. I'm more excited in fighting C'thun then i am bout Naxx.

Ok, so its december now 2 things i hate bout this month, but one thing i do like.

Hate -- Xmas, i'm sorry, but i like to sleep in and lay around on that day, never happens. When i was a kid was like the greatess day ever, but it's kind of boring now. Though free food woot!
-- December in australia is also the start of Summer... i hate the heat, i wish i could move over to the usa or something, heat = Sucks

Good -- NEW YEARs!! Ah, i remember the fun times i had on that eve, i wish i could remember some O.o but i not sure what i'll do this year, sure i'll find something.

Anyway thats over with, Other day we got our second Naxx boss down! Anub'rekhan got the smack down from the Penguins this week. The fight is long, as long as Twin Emps. I love that fight, i just can go in there and do pure dps, seen how much i can pump out in it, not many fights i get to dps in, seen that i'm one of the main tanks at times. I didn't hold back at all during that fight. Atm fully Raid buffed and some extra pots, i can hit 2k ap as i said im a post awhile ago. Throwing that at some bosses is alot of fun, been ages since i got to sit back and just enjoy dpsing, though i still like to tank, dps was my 1st love :P and come patch 2.0, Rampage, mmmmmmm *drool*


Some pictures from the fight.

So i spent most my day just hanging out on vent with friends, had a go at the punlic test realm also, can i just say. ZOMG I LOVE RAMPAGE!!!! It is the most coolest thing every, 200 extra attack power if you land 5 crits when its up, been fury warrior criting is all i do. so with that up and my battleshout up which is around 320 extra ap, and lets not forget Crusader i'm running around 1.8k ap with my own buffs. Friend on vent got to here me go nuts over it :P think i freaked her out some XD


With Crusader up which is not in this picture, should throw my ap up by another 200 more attack power.

I also got to try out the Arena system, it's nice place to just hang out with friends. Went in with a Druid and a Rogue, Destoryed anything that got in our way, Thing i loved the most was this pally was just standing around with his bubble up, it dropped, poped rampage he didn't last to long with me stopping him from healing and laying some nice crits on him :)

After all that good fun, i made my over to my normal server uther to help out in a BRD. Talk bout hanging out with the officers today :P BRD was alot of fun, 4 maned it, well 3 guys one girl. Easy goin run, i like those types of runs when you go in with a good bunch of people and everything just runs nicely. Lots of laughs on the way, like i said was good fun :)

err, summer sucks >.

So i have been back on WoW for abit now, and you would think things wouldn't changed to much, but then breaking things down you start to notice things. I'm not goin in to detail of what is in my head atm, but things are playing somewhat differently to what i thought it would. Lets see if my thoughts are right and it ends up the way they do.

But enough bout that, AQ40 was interesting today we did the Bug Trio, my god I swear we do that fight again, i'm logging off. I fucking hate that fight so much, its pure shit, Even the other fights in the place are far more fun then those fucking bugs. Even though we killed, i still don't like them and hope we never do them again. Other then that stupid fight, AQ40 was just fine.

Oh yeah, i can't believe people when things are getting DE, if there getting DE so fucking what, don't go on bout "Oh but those are better hp then those" If the person/peple don't want it then let it get DE and get the fuck off the issue, I'm actully mad that a warrior took those gloves, though it did shut the people up. My god, same thing happened in ZG over and axe that dropped of Hakkar, Warrior took it coz it was getting DE and then bitchs bout it.... Fucking hell let the damn thing get DE!!! Seriously.

But whatever, not like we get much choice eh? I guess this is one way coming back fired up. Don't get me wrong, i'm in a happy mood, just throwing my own opinion out there.

My current background, i like this screenshot, pic was taken in C'thun room

Ok so totally i'm back in wow, im feeling funky and ready to kick some arse! YEAH BRING IT!!!!

Got to say the break been short, did help a fair bit, though there is still real life issue on my back, but you can't solve them all, just the main ones out of the way atm.

1st thing i like to talk about is the Wii and PS3, like damn, those are some nice consoles, they both have there bad points, but still there both worth buying. But, if it was me I would go with the Wii, just coz its wiimote is freaking awesome, makes the games seem more interactive, and been Nintendo the console doesn't cost much compared to the X360 and PS3. Though overall i want a X360 more, just coz i like how they did the Xbox, Custom Music best idea every! So in a breakdown, I would go X360, Wii then PS3.

2nf, I finished Kingdom Hearts 2 this week, tell you, that game is awesome, so much fun. It's a rollcoster, excitement every were you go. Though i wish the Square Characters had more action bout them, mostly the Disney characters that get all the stuff. But, overall 10/10 Just a really fun game.

Oh, hehe ahve a look at these screenshots from ZG today

As it says, i am on a break from World of Warcraft to deal with issue with real life issue. Though i thought it would have been hard to just wake up and not click on the WoW icon, I've actully found it somewhat easy, I havent logged on in 3 days and had no feeling to, hope i can remember my password when i do get back O.o

As i have spent the past few days with friends, really starting to notice something. Those stupid thoughts i put in my head, wtf was i doin!? I'm better then that.
As i saw how happy my friend was when i said i was taken a break from WoW kind of set a cog in motion, I need to spend more time away from the game, well when i'm not raiding. These friends won't be here next year which is sad, goin to miss them so trying to fill in time, hang out some more.
Last night was fun, went to the movies to see Borat. My god, i couldn't stop laughing at times, though there were the "wtf moments". Also Peanut M&m's are evil, so full from eating only a few of them, and this movie had some yeah, well moments you just didn't want to watch.
Looking for work is "fun" >.< Pain the arse at times, though found some jobs in the newspaper sending in my resume and all that good stuff. Hope to hear back from them.

Really can't take the gamer out of me, Last time i took a break (Stupid fucking hard drive! 3 weeks man, 3 freaking weeks :P) I had to fill in the gap, kind of. Though stress from WoW builds up, just had to found a outlet. This time Kingdom Hearts gets a full dealing of my stress, and like every game they some how build there only stress. So during this break, playing Kingdom Hearts to keep me goin and not slipping into bored while getting things done, I hope to finish the game and play Kingdom Hearts 2 which is taunting me, look at it laughing saying i will never finish the 1st game. EVIL! .... anyway. *cough* i have a range of games to play so i should be fine :)

Got me a new sketch book, wooters! Drawing is fun just have to get into the mood. In the old days i started drawing coz i was upset, no more of that crap. Time be in a better mood to draw, never know might come up with something nice. USally im a sketchy drawer so none of my work is clean, i like the feel and look of sketchy drawings.

Well, i should get into gear and do something today, maybe move my room around for summer, hmm. Anyway I'm on MSN if anyone needs me and i might pop in and out of vent. So have fun guys, don't forget bout me and miss me to much. I'm still here. :)

Good Luck!

The title says it all, i'm almost at the end of my road on WoW.

Over the past 2-3 weeks i have been so down, I try to pull myself together but it just all breaks apart again. I have been trying to hide it from people coz i don't want them to worry, It's a problem i should take care of but i just can't, i don't know how i could fix these things.

The past 3 mornings i have woke up, i have logged onto WoW and sat there with the word /gquit in the test area, I don't see myself as important as people think i am, I feel useless and pushed to the side. I'm most likely no fun and boring, these are impressions i get from vent. Friends that have been having rough times, me been helpless coz i don't know the right words to say, what a great friend i am.

To add to all of this, it feels like the GM has put a big brick on my back, though my gear isn't as good as his and the other 2 tanks, how the hell am i meant to get upgrades when i can't bid or even the fucking loot doesn't drop at all. A point i hate but is clear as a bell. Am i no good? I feel i am but with all that on my shoulders i start to slip.

I wonder sometimes, what would happen if i left all together just got up and walked away. Would people care or even notice? Just... i don't know what to do anymore, i'm running road that must end soon. The more i fall apart the more i want to leave.

I just don't know anymore.